the road

these days, i'm struggling with all those responsibilities, school works n a few other things here n there...truly speaking, i'm happy with all those works...it does makes my life turning upside down, but i really enjoy the moments..i do cherish everything that comes to me...

but the past few weeks there was something happened that really affected me...how i wish i never know that thing..how i wish i just can let it go n pretending it never happened. but still, that thing keep lingering around n people do their best at talking. the moment i knew about the news, my mind was completely blank. it seems that when something awful happens to me, my mind just shuts down. these things change the way i think for a period of time after they happened. somehow, i find a way to keep it all together, but really, inside, i'm freaking out....

during the mind-numbing period, i was debating with my own emotions...of all those differing lows, i felt betrayed the most..part of me was so mad at the certain person...n another part of me was very sad...i never expected all these things to happen to me...i thought everything will running as smooth as it should be...

i do pray so that all the things that keep bothering me to go away...so that i can still be the real me...me is someone who really love to live a happy life...i do know somewhere along the line, i will find myself on a rough, rocky road...but i pray, that road will only leads me to be a more responsible person with a very strong heart so i can face the world with a big smile everyday...

사랑의 날

참 많이  궁금해  전  부  다  궁금해

왜  잠이  안  오고, 니  얼굴만  보여

나  도  궁금해  이  맘아  궁금해

왜  너만  보면  웃음이  먼저  나와

친구들  모여서  니  말이  나오면

왜  내가  들떠서  더듣고  싶은지

너만  있으면  난  딴  사람이  돼

또  뜬금없는  어색한  농담을  해

사실  난, 이  느낌이  이상해

구름  위가  있다면  여길까  

혹시  그런걸까  너  와  나  그런걸까

내  맘  과  같다면  시작  돼  버린걸까

너를  많이 많이  좋아해

너를 나  사랑하게  됐나봐

똑  같이  말하고  싶은데

내가  그래도  될까, 좀더  기다려볼까

나도 많이  많이  좋아해

사실  난  이런  맘이  첨인데

더  기다려줄게, 더  기다려줄래

난  여기  있을게 ,여기  있어줄래

우리는  이미  같은  맘인걸

내  뭐가  좋은지

난  그게  궁금해

언제  부더  내가  니 맘이 살았니

나도  궁금해  니 맘이  궁금해

싫지  않은게  아니라  좋은거지

예쁜  여자들은  참  많고  많은데

넌  정말  나  밖에  안  보이는건지

멋진  남자들 (누구) 니  곁에  많은데 (어디)

어떻게  니가  내게로  오는거니 girl

사실 난, 우릴  자꾸  상상해 (상상해)

이란  기분  어쩐지  수상해

같은  하늘  아래 (같은  하늘  아래서)

같은  생각을  하고

똑  같은  말  이제  해도  될  것  같은데

너를  많이 많이  좋아해

너를 나  사랑하게  됐나봐

똑  같이  말하고  싶은데

내가  그래도  될까, 좀더  기다려볼까

나도 많이  많이  좋아해

사실  난  이런  맘이  첨인데

더  기다려줄게, 더  기다려줄래

난  여기  있을게 ,여기  있어줄래

우리는  이미  같은  맘인걸

누가  좋아해, 더? 내가, 더?

그런  건  나  중요치  않은걸

나  손내밀면  그  손  안  놀  자신  있다면

영원히  그  손을  놓지  않을게

너를  너무 너무  좋아해

사실  난  이미  너를  사랑해

똑  같이  말  할  수 있는데

왜  난  떨리는  건지, 자꾸  망설이는지

아니  너를 너를  사랑해

이제는  내  맘  다  말해줄게

날  믿어주겠니  널  믿어볼게  난 

이  사랑  안에서, 이 사랑  속에서

나란히  같이  걸어  가자

둘이...

 파란 색 = 우리 요섭이  의 부분

핑그 색 = 은지 의 부분

채색 = 같이

p/s:::::: 이 노래 가  너무 좋아해...우리 귀여운 요섭이, 아름다움 목설이....

stress

*sigh......

minggu ni n minggu lepas sangat meletihkan...kelas ade pagi n petang tiap2 hari...1 kelas = 3 jam...korang kire la sendiri bape jam saye duk melangut dalam kelas tu......ni sume gara2 lec nak replace kelas sbb minggu ni dieorg nak cuti...kan cuti sekolah dah strat...huhuhu cuti sekolah....saye pon nak cuti jugak...saye merindui cinta hati saye...baru2 ni mama die msg bagi tau saye cinta hati saye demam...wwwwwwwwwwwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa............ nak balik......sian nye cinta hati saye tu...first time die demam tanpa saye...huk huk huk sedih nye....bile dapat tau die demam...saye asyik pikir je.,..ape yg die buat skrg ni...dah makan ubat ke blom...dah mandi ke blom...dah makan ke blom...huhuhuhu sedihnye saye....minggu ni saye bercuti 5 hari...dari hari rabu sampai la hari ahad...saye memang nak balik rumah...de n dayang msg bagi tau dieorg nak ke kl hari selasa.. pastu dari kl terus balik ke rumah mak...dieorg ckp kalo nak ikut, amek bas ke kl...nanti dieorg tunggu kat sane...tp masalh nye hari selasa kelas saye abes pkol 4...pkol bape saye nak sampai kl kalo pkol 4 still kat skudai lagi....x kan nak suruh dieorg tunggu sampai malam pulak...pkol bape plak nak sampai ke rumah mak nye...huhuuhu sedih lagi.....

the past few weeks saye memang stress sangat...dengan keje yang menimbun x penah abes...cinta hati saye yg jauh di mata itu pulak demam...pastu jari saye terkena virus infection lagi...huhuhuhu......teruk jugak la siap ke klinik segala bagai....pastu saye kena pantang makan sbb takut nanti die merebak jadi lagi teruk...dah 2 minggu lebih saye jadi vegetarian...makan sayur n nasi je hari2....pastu belum sembuh pon lagi jari yg satu tu, kelopak mata saye pulak naik biji2 kecik....huhuhu sakit tau...pegi kelas dah x boleh pakai lens lagi dah.,...tp seb baik ade kawan yg baik cakap "ko lagi cantik kalo pakai spek....pakai la spek hari2...x payah la pakai lens dah...." huhuhu terharu nye ngan kawan sebegitu...tenkiu zatyl...i lap u muah muah muah...

lately badan saye dah pon menunjukkan tanda2 stress....jangan cakap pasal 'cara menangani stress dengan bijak' dengan saye....saye tau sume tu...tapi kalo korang pon ade kat tempat saye sekarang ni, korang pon x kan apply segala teori pasal nak handle stress tu.....sekarang ni dalam kepala saye dah x de dah segala pelangi2 indah bintang gemerlapan awan kosmos segala bagai...yang ade cume la journal, presentation, roadtax kete bla bla bla....... sampai kan ade satu hari tu saye jadi blank...saye balik kelas sorang2 pastu naik bas sampai kat kolej  saye x tau nak tuju mane...terus je menonong masuk dalam kete start enjin pastu drive je x tentu hala....tau2 saye dah kat jusco dah....seb baik saye selamat sampai balik semula ke kolej...kalo x, x tau la ape nak jadi......

kadang2 ade jugak terdetik rase menyesal datang sini....kadang2 saye rase saye x sepatutnye berada disini....this is not somewhere i should belong....this is not what i want.....saye selalu pikir...mampu ke saye untuk terus kan sume ni....ape yg patut saye buat sekarang ni....saye x tau btol ke x keputusan yg saye buat ni.....

i wish if only i could..........

who i am??

i am a daughter of my parents..

i am a happy girl..

i love to laugh..

i am approachable..

i am one of those cute living things on earth..

i love cute and lovely things..

i love to eat..

i love reading..
i love to sing...
i can read, write and speak in korean well...

i love to learn through observations..

i love arts...any kind of arts...
i love the DIY craft...

i like cooking and baking..

i can cooks and bakes  very well..

i can sew, knit and do the crochet...

i can raise a kid..

i love to try something new..

i love bread so much..

i prefer vanilla ice cream..

i am lactose intolerant but i drinks chocolate milk....

i love watermelon and persimmons...

i love kids...

i have one adopted son... (my cinta hati)

i love to think everything beyond the imagination...

me is mine....

p/s:::: ni soalan yg lecturer bg mase dlm kelas falsafah pagi tadi...saje je menempel dlm ni....hehehehehe

kayaking

minggu lepas untuk aktiviti koko kiteorg kena berkayak....hohoho berkayak sakan la anak kesayangan encek musa ni ha.....

row row your boat
gently down the stream...

hahahha berkayak la sangat...kayak ni kan kena naik 2 orang..saye partner ngan liza...besa la muatan berat kena amik seat belakang...jangan nak mengada2 duduk kat depan ye....hehehhehee...saye x mengayuh sangat pon..hanye membiarkan liza keseorangan mengayuh dengan membawa muatan berat lagi sarat ni ha....hahahahahahhaha sian die...terkehel urat bahu duk mengayuh kuat sangat..... 

muke org yg x penat mengayuh...

partner ku yg gigih mengayuh...

merehat kan kaki lepas penat jalan n sesat

menunggu bas...bersemangat waja...

sesudah mengayuh

jalan jalan cari tempat kayak

us..

3/4 clasmate saye

merayau

sudah lame tidak bersiaran...terasa rindu pulak.....hahahahahahaha (poyos je...) lately a few things happened here and there.. so my life a bit terumbang ambing...huhuhu....nanti la..kalo free saye buat entri pasal event yg penah happened dlm hidup saye kebelakangan ni.....

last weekend saye balik ke melaka untuk ambik kuda saye nak bawak balik ke skudai....balik sensorang je nek bas...sampai melaka dayang jemput...kali ni kami berdua je kat melaka since de still kat kemaman lagi....so saye spent my lovely weekend with dayang...since de wasnt with us, we did a lot of girly things together.....we went for window shopping, gossiping, makan eskrem yg lagi mahal dr askin robbins' n tutti fruity, merayau sana sini sampai bengkak urat kaki....huhuhuu sangat sonok...kalo ade de pon sonok jugak sbb kiteorg x payah drive....heheheheheheh tp kalo de ade, kiteorg x bolh la nk window shopping n merayau lame2...besa la org laki memang cam tu...jalan banyak sket pon x nak...sengal je..... hahahahha

saye ni kalo negeri melaka tu dah selalu sangat samapi...sejak de menetap di melaka, dah berkali2 saye ke melaka....tp besa la merayau ngan org laki ni bukan nye boleh over2 sangat...nak2 lagi die yg pegang stereng...huhuhu ikot je la arahan,....hahahaa....kali ni, since de x de, saye n dayang memang merayau abes abesan...( walaupon x bape abes la...) ni first time saye ke jonker street...hehehehe...sengal je kan....org lain yg baru first time ke melaka pon penah je pegi jonker street...ekceli saye n dayang main redah je...pastu tau2 kiteorg dh kat situ....meronda sakan la.... kat situ banyak nye la kedai yg cute2...wwwaarrrgghhh.... geram sangat tengok all those cute things....rase mcm nk borong je sume tu....huhuhu tp kena tahan kan hati sbb keadaan kewangan yg x bape nak stabil skrg ni....huhuhu sedih je....(bajet kalo pegi lain kali bende alah tu dah x de la sume nye....sengal)

love this station...soooooooooooooo cute...

bas london.....

i found this at one of those antiques'

mee.....

never try......takut tak halal....heheheheeh

eskrem yg mahal kat jalan laksamana....

kepenatan meronda dlm kedai pak don...kiteorg dh bersila kat atas lantai dah time ni....

 

2 budak sengal...

p/s:::: saye drive sensorang dr ayer keroh ke skudai...alhamdulillah dipermudah kan segala nye...cuaca pon   cerah je....